aphrodisiac

it's far, far too late for me to actually be up, but i fell asleep at 6:00, right after coming home from the library, and woke up at 10:30 (only 'cuz my dad reminded me. i'll have to remember to thank him for that, otherwise i woulda completely forgotten to do my history homework, which rates pretty high on the 'not good' list). ate a late dinner of chex and milk, and these wonky apple chips my mom bought (apparently my suggestion of goldfish was completely ignored. D: ). unfortunately the apple chips are a little more acidic than i thought, so now my whole throat burns from eating them.
'cor, i also have suspicions that the label's claim to 'baking' is probably some secret code that really means 'chemically dehydrated'. s'what it feels like, at least.

tried to start making valentines but it looks like i won't get anywhere near finishing. oh well.
i have, like, 4 done.
well i could try ta finish a few in class. although that seems kinda unkind but howell. *sigh*
there isn't a single sign of snow, which is pretty depressing. and here i was hoping for a gigantic blizzard to snow us in, so i wouldn't hafta go to school tomorrow. no such luck. i even did most of my homework. my hopes! my dreams! dashed to the ground!
or something melodramatic like that.
history is making my heart well up with dread.
i wish i could reschedule my meeting with mrs. lentz but she'd probably be a little unhappy and putoff. or she'd be really nice and agreeable which frankly just makes me feel even guiltier. why do i have a guilt complex?
why do people have guilt complexes in general? did they serve some sort of evolutionary holdback or something?
D:


the last two days i have literally gorged myself on brokeback fic (because i am just that much of a poor deprived fangirl). MadLori's "Human Interest" and "Two Crows Joy" (the latter of which i'm still chewing through). MadLori has my undying love. her stories are deep and complex, plenty of drama with just the nicest snazz of humor and happiness. it twists the original just enough to give them a happy-but-vaguely-realistic ending. admittedly i'm a little disappointed about the fact she sort of glosses over the happy-but-vaguely-boring parts to get to the next dramatic confrontation but i suppose that's to be expected. anyway her ennis is kind of terribly sweetly shyly cute, in his 'i am a big strong cowboy goshdarnit!' way and she's a skilled enough writer to balance out 'plot' with fanservice, and knows enough that she doesn't have to graphically describe every single point of their lives. :D
i am sucker for that kinda stuff.

hmm yeah.
i oughta go to sleep.
i kept thinking 'well i'll sleep at 11:00' and that became 12:00 which became 1:00 and somehow now it's nearly 2:00 and i'm still not a-bed, which says a lot about my attempts to set deadlines.

yeah
g'night.